He Had Something In Mind for Me... Part 2

by Thomas Miles
Published June 3, 2005

I sat a few minutes. The pain was so bad. I hurt so much and nothing seemed to help. I felt as if God had abandoned me completely. I screamed again, "God I just can't do it without YOU! If You are real, if You hear me, then show me!" I cried some more. I paused, looking around me. Nothing seemed to take away the pain. Something was missing and I just couldn't continue.

I pulled the trigger. Nothing happened! I pulled it again. God had put the safety on. I knew right then God was truly real and had never left me. I was the one who had left HIM! And thank God He had never left me! I drove to a nearby pit where the water was very deep. I tossed that gun into the center of it and have never touched a gun since.

I found a very close personal friend that night - His name is Jesus. That was the missing element during all those years. I had never truly committed myself to Him! I had never truly asked Him to come into my life. During all those years, God was just a page in a book. He was just someone you read about. That night HE showed me He truly was real. HE showed me He cared for me! He was no longer just a page in a book! God had tried to show me His truth before and I had walked away from it.

That night I was at the bottom. I had never been so low before. I had never truly wanted help before. That night my heart was soft and the Holy Spirit was able to minister to me. That night I was able to truly hear God and to realize that nothing could help me other than JESUS!

On that night, I made a personal commitment to Jesus, and I've made Jesus personal in my life every day since that time. I've had a few stumbles, a few temptations, and some struggles, but God gave me victory over each one. He has taught me how to trust in Him. And He has molded me into what HE wanted, not what I wanted! Praise His Name forever and ever!

Isaiah 64:8, "But now, O LORD, thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand."

Jeremiah 18:4, "And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter: so he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the potter to make it."

In Conclusion:

I almost lost my life because I wanted to be in control of every thing that happened. One day I actually met the Man I wanted so badly to believe in. I spoke face to face with Him and told Him how badly I hurt and how I wanted to stop hurting. He tenderly and compassionately said, "I've been hurting right along with you and wanted you to stop hurting also. I kept telling you that all you had to do was truly call on Me and I would rescue you from the depths of pain."

I told Him I had called on Him over and over to no avail. He said, "You called on Me for the wrong reasons with the wrong spirit. You called on Me with schemes and plans. You called on Me with bargains and ploys, never truly wanting to change. That is why nothing happened for you."

He opened my eyes in a way they had never been opened and He showed me a love that no one or nothing could ever match. He showed me that He was real and that He truly cared about me. I made my relationship with Jesus personal that night. I made Him my best friend.

Have you made Him your best friend? He loves you and wants to walk and talk with you every day of your life. Don't wait until the last moment to meet Him for the first time.

Meet Him right now. He's waiting just for you! He had something in mind for me and He has something in mind for you!

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 10:8-10 But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach; That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

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