Dear Heavenly Father

by Brandon George
Published July 21, 2004

Dear Heavenly Father,

I was a failure. I fall short of your grace everyday. I was a cheat, I kept records of wrong, I lusted, I was greedy, I was found wanting. My desires drove me, and my actions were that of a malice man. I was cold hearted, no care, and no plans on doing so. Yet still you loved me. Even when I questioned everything about you and your power, you still loved me. You allowed me to go through the pit, and allowed me to be brought to my knees. I will never forget the night I prayed, for the first time in a long time. Tears rolling down my face, thinking that you would kill my body and soul at that moment. Instead, to my surprise, you loved me. You never left me, you waiting for me to turn back around. Every where I went, there you were waiting on me. I deserve not your love, and grace, but rather every form of punishment that exists. Still you loved me. And because of your loving and grace I am here today writing you this letter. The journey since that day I cried out to you has not been easy, but you never said it would be. I have been made fun of at times, I have embarrassed myself through my ignorance. Still you loved me, correct me, and showed me the way. I have fought battles since that day, some easy, some hard. Either way you where always there never leaving my side. When the clouds of fear, and tribulation came rolling in, you reminded me that you are bigger that any problem I will ever have. In fact you taught me that the things that happen in my life are only because you allow it. You have waited on me, and now I am here. I am ready, to serve you with all that I am. I hand myself over to you YHWH God, and ask that you would make me the man and servant you need me to be.

I am still a sinner, and will be until the day that I am made holy and kneel directly before your throne. I will fail, and have moments of weakness, but I am ready to serve you oh Lord or Lords. I am answering the call that has been placed upon my heart. I am tired of going my way, even though I love you and follow you. Even though I have accepted Christ into my heart and life, I have still chosen the path that I thought was best. Guide me down the road that you need me on. Show me your way.

In closing I also wanted to tell you thanks for not ever giving up on me. Even when I cursed the very ground I walked because you made it. Even when I turned so much that I could see you ever where and I hated it. Even when I committed every form lust, and had the heat of my emotions guide me. Thank you. That love, the love that you have shown me and still do to this day is unlike any love I have ever received. My parents can’t love like that, even though they come close, neither can my wife, kids, friends. Only you show and have that kind of love. So thank you of heavenly Father, for you have took this sorry dark soul, and made him a spirit of light!

-Your son through Christ,
Brandon George

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