Caution, Marriages Are Really Under Attack!!

by Paul Dawn
Published October 14, 2005

This is something that I shared on August 9, 2004, on another blog in a comment.

I felt impressed today of the Lord to share it again. It still is not easy to share, though it has been over a year.

I have edited it a little from the original because of events that have taken place since last August and I have edited it even a little more today, Wednesday, October 12, 2005.

I feel like there is someone reading this who needs to know that in spite of the way everything appears, God is still in control and He has not left you nor has He forsaken you. Just lean on Him!

It has been hard for me several times, even now, to post to the various blogs when the subject of marriage and husband and wife relationships come up, especially since my divorce, June of 2004.

A dear friend reminded me today about the accountability of our words and the things that we say. She and her husband have helped keep me accountable for the words I share, for the things that I write. They tell me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear.

I need to clarify, it is not that my former wife did not want to be married any more, I contributed a lot to that, in that I was not the covering that I should have been for her, for our children, for my family.

I love my family, but it was all about me, about what I was doing.

I failed as the spiritual leader of my family. I tried to create a ministry that did not exist. Oh, it existed, in name only, I did not want people to see me as a failure and it was only after I was stripped of everything, and the Lord put people in my life, who were open and honest, who told me like it was, that I was able to see little by little, how I let the enemy in.

Jodie and I both allowed the enemy in, but mine was the greater part, because I did not see, I did not have the relationship with the Lord that I should have. It took the last three years of my life, to realize what I have lost.

The Lord has done a lot in me since then, to bring me to the place that I am now in Him, but it was at a great price, for there are always consequences to our actions, I caused Jodie to lose hope and for that I am so sorry.

I have given all this to the Lord! I daily lift her before the Lord, to ask that He minister to her, comfort her, strengthen her, give her guidance, to bless her and watch over her, to bring healing to the wounds that I inflicted spiritually and emotionally to her by not being the man of God I should have been. I hope that someday she will be able to forgive me for the hurts spiritually and emotionally.

I know that the Lord will take what was meant to destroy us as a family and turn it around to bring glory and honor to Him, whether that means we will get back together, I don’t know, but I do know that she has a heart after God and that we both have gone through the dark nights of the soul.

That the Lord is rebuilding our relationships with Him, restoring us, and restoration takes time, does not happen over night. The one thing that I do know, is that He has and He will never give up on either one of us.

We have been blessed with three awesome children and three super grandkids and two great son-in-laws and we both agree we have been blessed by them. Our children are a gem and a treasure to us.

Whether we get back together, I don’t know. The thing that I do know is that the Lord is wooing us both back to Him, and that is the most important thing.

Falling in love with the Lord all over again, so that we can be the instruments in His hands that He wants us to be.

The main thing that the enemy tries to do to me now, is to try and convince me, that I really do not have anything to offer in this area, the enemy will say look at you and what has happen.

I know that it is a lie. I see that because of what has happen over the last three years, and especially these last 10 months here in Kennesaw, Georgia. I know that I am in the center of God’s will for my life, in writing, sharing, encouraging and exhorting others.

I have been given the privilege and honor of praying for so many different people and because of that which I have gone through, I can share out of reality and not mere theory.

It is because we share out of reality, that we are able to reach others, because we are sharing out of that which has been made real in our lives, that in the midst of all that is going on, that we can have the peace, rest and comfort of the Lord to carry us through these times.

We are a generation were marriages are under attack, and Christian marriages are suffering a greater hit then ever before.

It drives me to my knees to pray for families, for marriages, for those that are under attack. I pray that God will indeed work and intervene in those marriages, those families.

That He will deal with fathers and husbands, to wake up and to be what God has called them to be. To be an example of Christ and to give themselves for the Lord, for their wives and for their children, that the hearts of families will be restored.

May you all be blessed and continue to keep me in your prayers in this area, that I will continue to stay focused on the Lord and see Him move on behalf of my family.

I know that my former wife has a heart after God! She is a gem and a treasure to Him and I know in the end the Lord will be lifted up in all of this and that He will not lose the battle. Our children are a testimony to our Fathers faithfulness!

Till Later,
Paul

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