Anger Melted!!

by Paul Dawn
Published June 13, 2005

It is really amazing to realize how much stuff is buried deep within our soul, how it is buried deep within and how it builds up to a vocanic strength and begins to surface.

Up to today I thought I had things pretty much under control, but staying here in the home of my former inlaws, where my family and I lived for around fourteen years, a lot of memories began to flood back.

At the same time the events of the last two and a half years flooded back. Memories of the cancer, the surgeries, the recoveries and the divorce began to well up in my heart.

I could have kept it there and let it simmer and come to an unholy boil but I picked up a phone and I called my friends Gregg and Julie in Kennesaw, Georgia and I was able to share with Gregg my heart and he listened and he reminded me of some of the things that we had shared during the Divorce Care class.

That during the dark night of the soul, in the times we hurt and don’t understand, our Father is there.

That we need to realize our Fathers plans are good plans, that His purposes are being accomplished in our lives even when we don't understand at the moment all that it means.

A lot of events are getting ready to take place this upcoming week. Tuesday, the 14th, well be one year since the divorce.

Saturday the 18th will be our youngest daughter, Elise and Hunter’s wedding and it will be a beautiful wedding, filled with the presence of the Lord and I have the honor of giving her away to a man that loves the Lord and then on Sunday, is Father’s Day.

It will be a pretty emotional week in my life but I also know the Lord is with me, with my family in the midst of all of this.

We are a family, somewhat broken, but a family.

We will be there for our daughter, for our children and grand children and I know that in my heart of hearts that Elise and Hunter will be blessed.

The anger needed to be brought to the surface, along with the roots of bitterness and hatred so that the Lord and the Holy Spirit could deal with it.

The Holy Spirit brought me to my knees, to cry out and allow again the Holy Spirit to perform surgery of the heart and apply the healing balm of forgiveness.

In the darkest night, in the lowest times in our life, the Master says, “Come unto me, I will give you strength, I will give you rest and you will be set free and who I set free, is free indeed!”

Are you free, have you given it all to the Lord, the anger, the fears, the bitterness. Have you laid them on the altar, to rise up, with a heart set free? It works, it really works, I know, it just happen to me!

Give it all to Him!!

Till later,

Paul

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